June 2011
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Fuckfuck bad feeling should i not -_-
Nervous -_-
Somehow forcing my lazy ass to go to the gym bye
“Keep your hopes up high and your head down low.”
– ADTR
Confidence is a stain you can't wipe off.
Confidence is key. My confidence is wavering. I hate the fact that it’s a here and there kind of thing. It’s like this series of highs and lows. But the crashes are always worse than getting to the top, right?
Its so easy, when you’re fake believing. Untruly speaking, Wrecking feelings. It’s so easy, sparking opposite ends Fighting the good within, hiding my reasons
Sometimes I think it’s normal not to feel anything. I read and hear so much about apathy, the absence of emotions. How what should spur the strongest of emotions, spurs nothing. Maybe it is normal, and I shouldn’t worry. Ethier way, it leads to an unexplainable mess in my head, every time.
My mommy said
That when I turn 18 her and I can get a tatttooo together, and she was being completely serious :x Sometimes, she’s awesome.
“People sometimes say that the way things happen in the movies is unreal, but...”
– Andy Warhol
Messsing with your head messing with my head
Just got home from the beach :)
With my favorites. Funfunfun<3 Now I hafta shower so I can go to work sand-free!
“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines. You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows. This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too.”
-William Shakespeare
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When I go to hang out with my guy friends:
mynameislao:
Parent’s expectations:
Reality:
Hm, all I wanted to do was talk to you, hear your voice, tell you I missed you, and that I wanted to see you today if it was possible, very badly. That’s really all.
I'm talking to my roommate right now,
I hope she likes me :x And dentist appointment again soon -.-
“Hmm let’s figure it out… are you stressed about something? Is something bothering you? Was it too hot/cold in your room? Did you take a nap during the day?” Lmao you are the cutest, even though we barely talk, I know you can always make me feel better. Sucha good friend :)
Yesterday was one of the worst nights I've had in...
I don’t even know why. I got in bed at 11:30 and honestly could not fall asleep until 3:00. And I felt like I had no one to talk to, even though I was talking to a couple people, kind of like that whole ‘alone in a crowded room feeling’ to give some sort of perspective, as dumb as that sounds. Wow that sounds extremely dumb actually. Basically I was in such a shitty mood, yet...
Wah wah wah stupid feeling, stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid me, for feeling the stupid feeling.
Ruin-er.
You call me that as a joke, but the amount of truth in that ‘title’ is insane. I ruin everything -.- From my new yearbook within 10 minutes, to relationships that have taken years to build up. Wonderful. I’m honestly reckless.
Lately I’ve been hard to reach, I’ve been too long on my own. Everybody has a private world, Where they can be alone. Are you calling me? Are you trying to get through? Are you reaching out for me? I’m reaching out for you. I’m just so fuckin depressed, I just can’t seem to get out this slump If I could just get over this hump, But I need something to pull me out...
P.S I’m actually marrying you…. :)
My two favorite things in the whole world:
1) Dance. 2) My little-est sister.
Rant(s).
Thing’s are different between us, but it’s okay. I’m messing with your head, yes, but I’m messing with mine too. Highschool’s over. It hasn’t hit me. Who knows when it will? I asked God to help make sure I never lose you and the best friend I have in you, Even though I’m not too big of a believer :x I guess I just really needed someone to know how much I...
